30 Days of Thanks - Day 5

Today I’m thankful for the Great Lakes. It’s a vague and generalized thing to be thankful for, but I could go on forever about each lake that I have experience with and I just don’t have time for that right now. I’m thankful for their beauty and for their resources. I’ve watched countless sunrises and sunsets over the lakes, stared at the stars all night on the beach, and cooled my body on hot summer days for decades. These lakes are just glorious all year.

I’m grateful for a place to sit and think while I listen to the waves crash on shore. I’m thankful for friends who also enjoy these beautiful places along the lakes. When I lived in Texas or New Mexico, I missed being near them so much. While in Oregon and Washington, I had the ocean and it was a great substitute.

The Great Lakes must be protected and cared for, so go see them for yourself and learn how important they are to the world.

Sunset on Park Point in Duluth, MN over Lake Superior

Sunrise over Lake Superior on Park Point in Duluth, MN

Another Lake Superior Sunrise in Duluth, MN

A cold January sunrise in Duluth, MN over a frozen Lake Superior

Lake Huron sunset, 9pm, Seagull Point Park in Rogers City, MI

Lake Huron sunset in the late fall near Rogers City, MI

Lake Huron Sunset near Rogers City, MI featuring a tamarack tree losing needles in late fall

Summer sunset over Lake Michigan in Grand Haven, MI

Sunrise over Lake Michigan in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula (from about 2005)

Summer Sunset over Lake Michigan

Waves crashing on a Lake Michigan beach

#MondayMotivation - New Light

I’m sure i’ve spoke to this topic before, but seeing something in a new light can change the perspective one has about that situation, person, place, etc. I was driving yesterday and I had just wrapped up listening to Ina Garten’s memoir which is relevant because it was challenging me to think more critically about what I want and who I want around me as a grow old. The sun was streaming through the remaining leaves in the forest and the light was just magical. I had just made it back to Ohio and found myself on a familiar route - the route I take each day for work. At first, I didn’t really recognize the road other than seeing the sign and knowing where I was and it was because I rarely drive during the light of day down this route.

I didn’t feel any sort of negative way about the road or the commute, but seeing it in a different light made me appreciate it a bit differently. After living in the city and the PNW, I appreciate the quiet of semi-rural and the Midwest. The light changes and so does the perspective. As we’ve transitioned from summer into fall, the physical light has changed and even the way I see the world is changing every day.

My advice: try to see the situation, place, person, or idea in a new light if you are struggling with it right now. Maybe you will gain a new perspective, or maybe it will just confirm what you already know.

30 Days of Thanks - Day 4

Today I’m thankful the scenic hiking trails of the Pacific Northwest. It was the dream to live near all of them, and it was the sad reality that work and life get in the way of seeing them as often as I’d have liked. I’m thankful they exist and I’m grateful to have visited so many of them and that there are plenty left for me to see. I’m thankful they feel familiar and like home.

I’m thankful for every hill, view, and friend along the way. I’m thankful for the big trees and the knowledge of the land. The hiking trails out west hit different, and I will always miss living near them. Weirdly, it hurts less living far away from them now than it did before living out there. I still feel very deeply for the big trees, misty mornings, and snow-capped volcanoes. My heart aches for them, but now they’ll be reserved for special trips again only this time with better income, more time, and a new outlook on life. There’s nothing like vacationing to these gorgeous spots.

My appreciation for the expansive and larger-than-life hikes out west only makes me love exploring Appalachia and the Northeast even more. I slept on this region I now call home, and I can’t wait to see it all. Enjoy a few photos and memories from hiking in the PNW.

Cascade Pass - where I hiked up a mountain a few different times to see nothing but clouds. (Um, it was okay, still very cool and emotional and I heard an avalanche once)

Falls Creek Falls - This hike, with one of my most lovely and patient friends, revived my desires to explore and reignited my need for nature. This was a spectacular journey, and I’d do it again in a heartbeat.

Ecola State Park - Getting to show my best friend a place she’s always wanted to see will never leave my brain. The expansive views of the Oregon Coast have been one of my favorite places since the VERY FIRST moment I saw them in 2008. I’m basically in tears just thinking about this.

Windy Ridge - Have you ever walked on the land forever changed by a recent volcano? See Mt. St. Helens was insane and to think about how it forever changed the ground I was walking on was insane.

Skyline Trail - Hiking around Mt. Rainier is spectacular. Sure, seeing the summit so close you feel you could lick it is neat, but have you looked off in the distance? WOAH.

Mt. Storm King - Nothing prepared my for this hike. Through the gorgeous woods and the reward was the view. Take me back.

30 Days of Thanks - Day 3

Today I’m thankful for this house I rent in this quiet neighborhood in a nice, small town. I have space to breathe, stretch out, store things I love, and have guests for fun visits. I am so thankful to have found a place and that I can afford a house with a deck, garage, basement, and big yard for Chewy.

Back when I moved to Olympia, I had the space and mostly quiet neighborhood. The house was nice, but not like this. Portland was busy, loud, and overwhelming every day I lived there. (I lived there 227 days). I was not doing well with it and wasn’t going to last much longer there. I lived in a busy and noisy part of the neighborhood which started to drive me mad. I miss the people I love in the PNW, but I’m loving my simple and quiet midwest small town life.

I’ve always loved a quiet, suburban town and this is close enough to that here in Lancaster. If I need city life, Columbus is closeby with Cincinnati and Cleveland not too far away either. I can drive 5-6 hours and be in DC, Detroit, Grand Rapids, or almost Chicago or Indy. This place is great and I’m thankful every single day.

30 Days of Thanks - Day 2

Today I’m thankful for this new job and a flexible work schedule that lets me typically work four 10-hour days. The job is more interesting, brought me back to the midwest, and gives me flexibility most weekends. I’ve been learning a lot in the past six weeks, and have a lot more to learn. I’m working hard to make good impressions and navigate my new responsibilities.

This new job is opening doors that have been closed for years and teaching me so much.

30 Days of Thanks - Day 1

Today marks the beginning of November and a month I always try to celebrate how thankful I am for everything that I have. I’ll be doing a short post every day, highlighting something I’m thankful for and I encourage you to comment and do the same. Enjoy!

Today I’m thankful to be back in the Midwest. I’m so grateful to be near my brother, family, and friends in the Midwest and along the east coast. It’s so cool being within driving distance so that more spontaneous events can happen. I hope to visit so many of you and I hope you’ll make the trek to visit me too. The guest room is ready!

All the amazing people aside, there’s also so many good hiking and camping areas around as well so many scenic views. I’m excited to explore completely new-to-me-territory.

What are you thankful for today?

#MondayMotivation - Keep it.

I once let someone’s opinion convince me to follow suit on something even though it was not the right choice for my life.  I once (or twice or more) let my desire to keep the peace or desire to fit a certain ideal affect how I went forward.  This is not to say compromise is the devil, but I do not recommend abandoning your desires or plans (or giving up entire collections of things that you spent years putting together) just to mesh with someone you barely know.

Hold on to you and find what motivates you.  Find ways to compromise if you must combine your likes, desires, dreams, hopes, goals, etc. with someone else. There are plenty of amazing people out there and plenty of different ways to coexist - whether you are lovers, friends, or just roommates. Communicate your thoughts, dreams, desires, and things you’re not willing to budge so easily on. It is okay to stick to something you love or hold on to THINGS you love if they mean something to you.

I’m rebuilding my life and it’s not what I expected, but not in a terrible way. I miss things I’ve given up (and kick myself for doing so sometimes) and I miss old parts of me I thought were dormant. Don’t rule anything out, but don’t settle just because you’re afraid of not settling. Happy Monday and keep going! You’re not alone-alone, you may be alone but not like alooooone. <3

Monday Motivation - Find that good thing

I've been trying to give myself a break and find the good in every situation I end up in these days. Looking back, I've been finding these pockets of photos that trigger some of the most wonderful memories and make me want to relive those days. We can't relive the days of the past, but we can use that energy and the ideals of the memories to make new moments that will be looked back upon with joy and smiles. Instead of chasing the high from back then, I'm going to use it and create a new version today.

Look back, but don't get held up on the great moments and think you can't have them again. Take the good and run with it and find something new and exciting to turn into new memories.

#MondayMotivation - Everyone's got something

You’re unique, but not alone… everyone’s got some shit they worry about or feel judged for, even if they’re not really being judged. Your anxiety and feelings are valid, I promise, but can often be your brain playing tricks on you and not actually based in reality. I was tricked for years, and still am, by my own damn brain and it’s just not fair but know you’re not alone. It’s okay to analyze and find the truth, though. Believe the good things, too, and it’ll help.

I have to remind myself that I’m not the center of the universe, despite what I want to believe. This notion has helped me realize that while I’m significant, I’m probably not the target of whatever bad thing I think is coming my way. I wasn’t singled out to have this particular bad experience by some higher power and it probably just happened and that’s okay.

Maybe it’s the new location, maybe it’s the space to breathe, or maybe it’s some combination of those plus being close to things I am both familiar with and have no idea about but my anxiety has mostly disappeared and my outlook for the generality of life is a bit brighter. Personally, I’ll be happy once this election cycle and transfer of power is complete and in the past.

I’m welcoming the fall here in Ohio. I’m welcoming the season of things dying and resting in preparation for the big sleep. It is time to put things to rest and embrace the slowdown. I hope y’all have a good week ahead!

the sunset in my neighborhood

Tuesday Truths

Damn, it’s been a while. Hello again! Here are some hot takes for this fantastic Tuesday. Cheers!

• Ohio is not as bad as it is made out to be.

• Ohio State Fans are as annoying as any other football fans, only worse.

• Moving is the worst thing.

• Rental homes are all trash, no matter how they dress them up.

• Commuting is better when it is not in a metro area.

• Moving is one of the most expensive things you may ever do in your life.

• Eastern time is the correct time.

• The Google Pixel 9 XL feels better in the hand than a new iPhone.

• 9:30 bedtime is literally for toddlers and I feel attacked, but also I’m tired.

• Meal prep and having a predictable menu all week is the best.

The sunset from my front porch

My brother and his fiance brought a grill!

Thursday Thoughts - I'm Moving On

I started to write this post many times and my feelings vacillated between teary eyed and completely pumped. I have such mixed and complicated feelings around the topic of home, so it’s not surprising to have all of these emotions. “Home is where your rump rests” —Pumbaa

I’m trying to tell myself this wasn’t a waste of money, because it took a lot of money to be here. I’m trying to tell myself that it’s okay to not want something you thought you wanted for over 15 years. I don’t know where I’d be if I had been able to stay in Olympia longer, but that didn’t happen and this is the way the cookie has crumbled. Life kept going, no matter the circumstances, and it’s led me to this moment.

Me in front of the glorious Mt. Rainier

I tried new things. I tried to love Portland and the people of Portland. I tried new versions of myself. I tried alternate timelines and wild-to-me things. I tried. All of the trying made me feel weird and invalid. All of these mishaps brought me back to who I am - the outdoorsy, generally unaware, golden retriever that I am. I have no regrets because I tried things I knew I would have never tried before. I have no regrets because I learned from every experience and relationship I’ve had while being in the Pacific Northwest. I’ve made some genuinely wonderful friends and I’m glad to have them yet sad to leave them.

“I’m not sure my brand of outdoorsy is right for the area” is a thought I’ve had many times living here. I’m not super ambitious these days - more of a lazy outdoors person. I saw myself going out every weekend and exploring as often as possible. Well, reality always hits and it’s not always that simple. Depression, anxiety, burnout, time, costs, friends, other plans, crowds, and distance have all been factors in my lack of doing certain things I thought I wanted. I could sit here and make the excuses, but I’ll just admit that it wasn’t as easy as I thought to just go somewhere and do the damn thing.

I’ve wanted to live in the Pacific Northwest since 2008 when I first visited with my pals on our second big spring break road trip. I’ve wanted to live in Portland since 2013, and seriously considered it in 2014. I applied for jobs all over Oregon from 2009 onward and had several interviews, but nothing ever worked out. When I moved in to my apartment in January, in the middle of a blizzard (I’ve done that before, btw), I thought it was great. As I settled in, and the temperatures warmed, I noticed things that started to slowly drive me batshit crazy and I couldn’t wait to finish my lease and get out to the suburbs or rural area. The city is really not for me, and I learned that lesson living in a super busy area with thousands of people concentrated around me. I don’t like driving, parking, or dodging people with crazy dogs. I don’t like hearing my dumpster being emptied at 3:00 AM. I don’t enjoy not having an outdoor space of my own or paying an exorbitant amount for parking.

As the year crept forward and my general disdain for the city grew, I also realized I wasn’t saving as much or paying debt off fast enough and I needed a change. I started with a plan to move to Vancouver, WA with a roommate to save more money and have more space. That plan seemed perfect, until I realized I still wouldn’t be saving enough. After a chat with my dear friends, I made a new plan to move to Michigan to stay with them and get life back on track to where I thought I needed to be. As it turned out, life had other plans for me. I was contacted about a job in Ohio doing something that intrigued me, so I applied and interviewed. Fast forward a few weeks to accepting the job and packing my life for a move back to the Midwest in a different way than I had originally planned. I’m excited to be closer to my people, near the Great Lakes, and to be in an area that is a little more quiet and rural. I will genuinely miss those who made Portland and the Pacific Northwest feel like home to me.

I have no idea what Ohio will bring for me, but I do know I’m ready to start the journey and see what happens. I will always visit the PNW, as I have for all the years before but now I’ll have people to see and stay with when I visit. I’m grateful for the opportunity to continue this life and try something new. If you’re in the Midwest and want to get outside or hangout, you know how to reach me! Happy trails.

I haven't been to Ohio since 2007? 2008? This photo is from 2006 or 2007 on an adventure to Cedar Point in Sandusky.

I'll miss the PNW but I think it'll be fine without me. (Olympia, WA 2023)

Waterfall Wednesday - Multnomah Falls

Multnomah Falls is one of those places you take all out-of-town visitors when they come to see Portland. I’m taking my visitors this weekend and I can’t wait to see it again myself. As my time in Portland comes to an end, I’m thankful that this staple feature is nearby and that I could just drive out and see it and the many other waterfalls within an hour of the city. I did not take any of these natural wonders for granted, and plan to be back as often as time allows. Cheers!

This is the first time I saw the falls - December 2012.

Framed by fall color in November 2021

A view from the top down, the first time I hiked to the top back in September 2022

Late summer trickle, first day of fall Sept 2022

Spring water back in March 2024

#ForestFriday - Gifford Pinchot NF

I recently had the privilege of hiking with one of my besties from Texas up in the Gifford. We found the glorious trees and waterfalls that Washington (and the PNW) promised me years ago when I first visited. Enjoy a few photos and go on and get out there this weekend if you can! Happy hiking!

The calm noise of a flowing river. (Falls Creek)

The hike was worth it, for sure.

Around the rocks and ferns…

It’s bigger than it appears in photos.. Falls Creek Falls

The upper portion is as big as other waterfalls I saw earlier in the day

Majestic.

#MondayMotivation - Try anyway

I haven’t been as active as I need or want to be and thus I have become a little slower and out of shape. I was convinced (by my own brain) that I shouldn’t waste my time driving to trails until I did a little more cardio or whatever to get prepared. All of these thoughts went out the window yesterday when I met up with my dear, nonjudgmental friend in town from Texas. She’s been on a mission to see as much as she can while in WA and yesterday was no exception. We hiked to two waterfalls that I’ve wanted to see since moving up here in 2022, that happened to be on her list, and it was glorious. Was I a little slow and sweaty? Absolutely. DId it matter? NOPE. Go do the thing or go try the other thing, but don’t do what I did and wait or sit convinced it can’t happen. Enjoy a few photos of the adventure and get out there.

You can do it, and if you can’t, you tried and you’ll keep trying.

Panther Creek Falls

The drive between trailhead parking lots

Falls Creek Falls

MondayMotivation - Distract Yourself

Sometimes, just sometimes, you can’t seem to overcome the BS. You can’t get past the event or activity that has you messed up. When you can’t move past that thing, go somewhere distracting!

Yesterday started off in a gut wrenching, terrible-to-me way with my car being broken into. I cleaned up the mess, did all the reporting and claiming but it still left me angry and violated. After a morning of unexpected cleaning and my usual chores, I reluctantly set out with the some friends to the coast. The glorious Oregon Coast offered the distraction I needed from the events of the morning. I saw waves, wildlife, and the sunset all while laughing and smiling.

I’m back to reality today - working, waiting on the glass people to call, and hoping nothing else tragic happens. Deal with the crap, do something to be happy again, and keep going! You’ve got this!

What a mess, but, it is dealt with and life goes on. I’ll get a detail after the new moonroof is installed.

#ForestFriday - Through The Woods

I have a few specific memories of my grandmother (Gramma) that always comes to my brain when I think of her. Today is her birthday, so I’ve been thinking about her all morning. For this #ForestFriday I’m thinking of the times we would walk the dog through the Besser Natural Area (Bell Bay) and look for the old homesteads in the woods. We’d meander down the trails and walk past the lagoon and eventually out to Lake Huron. This little nature area was only a few minute drive from our family cottage, so we would go often in the summer season.

Enjoy some photos as I travel down memory lane in honor of one of my biggest supporters and favorite people in one of our favorite places (and then a few of her just for fun). Rest in peace and thanks for everything, always.

Way Back Wednesday - Ruby Beach

I have the beach on my brain as the temperatures look to be heating up again. Summer, please go away! Escape with me to the coast of Washington state at Ruby Beach. Take in the sunshine, knowing it’s only in the 60s out there! Enjoy and stay cool, friends!

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The view from the trail down…

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You can find some shade behind the big rock

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Let the water come in and wash away those cares

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Spend hours listening to the waves and looking through beach rocks

#MondayMotivation - Find something new

What do you do when things don’t feel right? I change something. I think this has been a theme of previous Mondays, but it’s a good one to keep revisiting. I keep feeling these pulls to the darkness and I have to keep adjusting and changing to make sure I’m not insanely doing the same things and expecting new results. For my weekends, I’m looking for cool things I want to see around Oregon. I need to embrace and immerse myself to feel at home and I haven’t been doing it enough while I’m here.

I’m changing what’s going on in my body, changing what goes in my body, and hopefully sleeping more so I can reconcile some negative feelings I have about myself and the way I look. I can’t expect to feel better about myself without making some changes to the way I am or the way I see myself.

I hope you find your way through the week with some positive energy and changes if necessary.

Way Back Wednesday - Crater Lake!

My friends are coming to town, so we’re going to drive down to Crater Lake this week. In honor of the beauty, enjoy some photos from the time I visited last fall.

I went early to watch the sunrise over Crater Lake - still as glass!

The lake remained still ast the sun continued up the sky

That water looks brilliantly blue!

As beautiful as the lake is, the forest surrounding the lake is also quite remarkable. No matter how you drive in, it’s spectacular.

Tuesday Truths - Summer Stinks!

I’m just living my truth about summer.

• Summer is only good when you’re not in Texas. (I hate hot weather)

• Sweet relish should be illegal (I’ve been tricked too many times)

• Burgers without cheese have no place in my home

• Hot dogs should have black on them

• Sweet pickles should also be illegal

• For hot dogs, yellow mustard is superior

• Your fireworks look like shit

• Marshmallows should not be burnt, just brown

• It’s not a s’more without chocolate (Hershey’s plain chocolate)

• Night swims are superior to day swims

• Midnight walks or bike rides in the summer are the best