July was better than June, but still not on par with the first five months of the year. My weight is up, I’m bloated, my running is suffering, and my body is just blah. I am feeling the effects of being too lazy in the opposite way I felt after mashing my hip and knee from being too active. I have to find a balance in August.

Work is a continued stress ball, but I’m learning new ways to manage it overall. I’m slowly distancing from social media, negative bitches, and people who make me feel less than great. It’s not as easy as just saying “I’m going to avoid people” because saying and doing are vastly different.

Here’s to August, a month of goals.

The Good

I kayaked a few times - once being down a river!
I spent a week deep in thought, trying to find a way through everything
Food intake was moderate to good all month, despite my lack of logging in Noom
Had several nice hikes and visited new state parks
Had some breakthroughs with biking
Working toward being back on my regular track of better choices
I read a little bit, but man is it hard for me to sit down and read for some reason
I had quality time with family and friends
Had some nice long, healthy walks and jogs
Realized I can still run, albeit for not as long as I could back in May
I signed up to ride 100 miles to raise money for kids cancer treatment/research in September - so I’m going to work hard this month to get ready for that by riding more often.
We have a second kayak now, so together time kayaking can happen!
I did more activity, and more per day of activity, than June

The Not So Good

I had some real shitty days for activity - pure laziness and some days of just driving all day
I did not track my food for the last half of the month
My sleep schedule has shifted and I’m not happy with it
I’m falling short on my overall annual goal numbers
I did not meet my previous July activity level
I just didn’t care enough

Mental Health Check In

I took a week and just thought really hard about what it is I wanted, where I wanted to be, and what I needed to do going forward
I managed to regain my positive energy despite these shitty-on-paper numbers this month (again, but with more momentum)
I made plans, set attainable goals, and got back on the food logging wagon (today, 8/3)
Managing work stress is easier than ever, now
I’ve felt kind of lonely, despite not being alone (this is a continued feeling, though it’s fading - ebbs and flows)
Routines are still my best tool in staying happy, healthy, and optimistic (still true, still something I think about often)

Goals for August

100+ miles of “on-foot” activity (hiking, walking, running)
75+ miles of biking
Wake up before 7 am
Get to bed by 10:30 pm
Log all meals (failed to do so on Aug 1 & 2)
Log in to Noom and work through it
Write once a week
Eat less shit and less overall
Drink less alcohol during the week
Increase water intake
Yoga once a week, minimum 15 mins
Find a body weight workout to do once or twice per week
Read another book
Focus on staying clear

Conclusions - Going Forward

I’m more on track than June, but I really need to push myself
I need to get my shit together as far as meeting my annual goals. July and June were huge hits to my goals. I need to balance - not caring and care - a little better.
I will keep trying - there’s no reason to give up because of a few bad weeks
I can get fully back on track with a little focus
I like to give in to my desires too easily - beers, sweets, laziness… in reality, I don’t need those things and I know.
The worst thing is knowing you’re doing something wrong and not being able to stop yourself